Here It Comes...

For the six months or so, my husband and I have been seriously seeking God for direction. Six years ago, the Lord called my DH to preach. He accepted. It is quite amazing how God works. As a teenager attending a Christian school, one of my teachers would often tell me, "You're going to marry a preacher." My first reaction was, "No way!" Although I felt that God was calling me into some form of the ministry, I wasn't readily accepting of that call. Nor was I sure which area of the ministry He wanted me in. I thought I felt a strong pull to missions, but was really scared to openly admit this, for fear it was my own desire and not God's. I felt so inadequate to step out and say, "God's called me to be a missionary." Looking back now, I can see that God was calling me to come up higher, and maybe if I had "surrendered all" and sold out to His will, he would've used me in that avenue. I will always wonder.

But here I am, 15 years later, and what a journey it has been. My husband and I met under rather unconventional circumstances (long story), but God had a plan all along. I never dreamed DH would be called to preach! He is quiet, reserved, scared to death of crowds and attention. So much that he completely forgot to comb his hair at our wedding! Ha! But God does not call the equipped; he equips the called.

So, as I was saying, about 6 months ago we sat down and analyzed our spiritual, ministerial progress and realized we have been rather stuck. We haven't grown into the potential that God has clearly communicated He sees in us. We've been fasting and praying for His perfect will in our present and future, and it seems to be getting his attention. Not that we think we are anybody. We know we are nobodies--perhaps that is what has held us back for so long. But God is opening doors, nonetheless, and we are finding our hearts are willing and eager to walk through them.

I'm not sharing this to brag or get pats on the back. I am awed and humbled that God would want to use us. It's amazing how God moves. If you are truly, sincerely seeking His direction, He will give it. Are you willing to dig deeper, go that extra mile to show Him you are serious? And then have that faith to believe He will hear and answer. You'll find yourself climbing out of your rut and making progress once more. It just takes a little bit of faith, hope, and determination.

It's exciting! What door will He open next?

5 years ago........

How time has flown...my baby turned 5 years old Saturday...he is such a blessing--always smiling and full of energy. He is the most loving little boy I've ever known! I don't know what I would do without Him! Thank you, Lord, for my little (getting BIG) boy!

A New Outlook (and a challenge)

For those of you who still read my blog, you may have noticed it's been kind of quiet lately. Other than reading my fave blogs, I just haven't had much interest in blogging in the last little while. I've been reassessing my priorities, and blogging is at the bottom of that list. This year, I purpose to challenge myself to reach for higher things, to tighten the belt so to speak, and strengthen my self-discipline. Computer time has been one of the first challenges I've tackled. First and foremost, I've renewed my morning prayer/Bible reading sessions. It's been hit and miss for a while, but I am determined to make this a habit, no matter how long it takes. I've also determined to take better care of myself. This includes eating healthier, spending more time being active outdoors, and also taking care of physical needs by going to the dentist and keeping my contacts fresh (I tend to wear them for months at time). I have not been to the dentist in 7 1/2 years! Shame!

We have also really started cracking down on preschool activities this year. We spend about 2 hours a day working on the alphabet, numbers, shapes, and pre-writing skills. The kids are advancing so quickly I am ashamed that I waited so long to spend this amount of time doing school with them. I really do have some sharp kids!

This week, I decided to challenge myself and see how much I could cook from what I have on hand already. We don't usually have a big stock of stuff in the pantry, because I make a menu plan and shop for the specifics on that menu. But, my husband likes to shop the sales and has got us a really good stock of stuff here lately. It was actually fun to look around and be creative with what I had! It's really surprising how far you can make it if you really want to. So, here's my menu for the week:

Breakfast: We usually have grits, eggs, toast, (or a combo of all three) with the occasional pancake or biscuit addition. I do not give my kids cold cereal for breakfast because it never sticks with them. Plus, I want them to have something warm to eat on these cold mornings.

Tuesday:
Lunch--Me--Lean Pocket
Kids--Chicken nuggets & sweet potatoes
Supper--Crock pot deer steak with potatoes and onions, steamed veggies on the side

Wednesday:
Lunch--Me--chicken strip/salad wrap
Kids--Turkey hot dog, baked french fries, fresh fruit
Supper--Leftovers

Thursday:
Lunch--Me--Boca Burger
Kids--Grilled cheese, fruit
Supper--Baked chicken strips, potato salad and baked beans

Friday:
Lunch--Me--chili
Kids--PB & J, fruit and yogurt
Supper--Leftovers

Saturday:
Lunch: Me--Soup & Sandwich
Kids--homemade pizzas (sliced french bread with pizza sauce, cheese, & pepperonis)

Sunday:
Lunch: Potato Soup (we have late lunch on Sunday, so we'll eat rest of soup after church Sunday night).

The few things I needed for this menu cost me $42.08. I'd say that's pretty good compared to the $75-$100 I usually spend on groceries each week. As hard as I've tried, I just can't seem to get it less than that. Another challenge for the year!

Looking back on 2009, I am proud of the goals that I reached. I really turned over some new leaves, so to speak, things that will stick with me for the rest of my life, hopefully. I'm so thankful for the Lord's mercy, that it's new every day, and when we fail we can start over again.

I would like to create a reading list for 2010. Please, share any books you can recommend on homemaking, mothering, wifeing {new word :)}, etc. I love historical, Christian fiction but I want to expand my horizons beyond this. Any suggestions?